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i was reading 'chicken soup for the nurses' soul' yesterday and came across this story about how  nurse / surgeon that got encouraged and all by God. i didnt take much notice bout it and dismissed it, thinking that that only happens to people who pray like crazy and stuffs like that after listening to a christian radio station that played a verse 'come to Me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. matthew 11:28' 

i went on to read other stories and finished up the whole book. just that story stayed with me. i went home and my dad gave me a purple pen that had a pull out that said 'come to Me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.' matthew 11:28.

the exact same verse that i read, and remembered. i asked my dad where he got the pen from and he said that at the weddingservice, a random man went up to him and just said that the pen is for him. when my dad asked if he knew the bride and groom, the man said that he didnt know them.

so this man, approached my dad out of nowhere and gave him a pen that was passed on to me after a night. i couldnt believe my eyes / ears when i saw the pen and heard what he had to say.

funny thing is that, i dont feel physically tired though. am i spiritually, emotionally, mentally tired? i really dont know.

maybe i should ask Him.

Hosanna (Brook Fraser - Hillsongs)
Bridge:
heal my heart and make it clean!
open up my eyes to the things unseen!
show me how to love like You have love me..!

break my heart for what breaks Yours
everything i am, for Your Kingdom's cause
as i walk from earth into eternity! (repeat as many times as you want)

i randomly decided to look through all my past posts and im actually quite amazed at how grounded i was in Him. everything was going on fine then and it was so easy to praise Him and stuffs like that. yeah, i still do go to church and all but i need to find that spark i used to have back. if i can just find that back, ill be much better. faith - Forsaking All, I Trust Him. what happened to me believing in that so strongly?

sarah, please please do something bout your spiritual life.

 

i had dinner with a friend of mine that just came back from england and i had fun catching up and talking and catching a glimpse of the outside world from from his recounts. i felt a like a little girl, listening to stories from a knowledgable story-teller, oooh-ing and ahhhh-ing bout everything he says.

later, when we parted for home, i was just casually telling him how time flies and how one moment, we were talking bout my N levels and the next, we were talking bout our respective job or job-to-be. and he replied me, saying,
'yeah, time flies but i will live it to the fullest and have done so. never regret it. cos you only have one life and you choose your own path to take. but whatever choice you make, dont look back. keep moving forward.'

that last line really spoke to me and i told him that he was a gem and stuffs like that and below is his reply.

'nah, everyone's a gem cos everyone's unique.... in order to care for someone, youhave to care bout yourself. so look forward, not backwards cos everyday's a present.'

 that got me thinking a little. he's right, everyday's a present and i should live each day to its fullest and not keep looking back at what happened in the past.

so that's exactly what im gonna try my best to do. theres no point in looking back and end up crying all over again. instead, i should thank you for those memories. yeah, they'll just be memories to me. prolly nothing more than that. its still a waste that it ending like this but it happened so ill just have to deal with it. enough is enough.

oh, i finished the letter. 1795 words. damn.

oh! happy day! happy day!
You've washed my sins away
oh! happy day! happy day!
i'll never be the same
forever i am changed

i will lift my voice to worship
i will lift my voice to praise You
You alone are God
You alone are good

was at church today and sat for through sermon and all and the message was pretty straight forward actually. when youre in trouble, dont try settling it all on your own. the thing is, i think that alot of people know how to do that already and its pretty natural to everyone. but the trick is to remember Him, and praising Him when you are down and out.

that wont be easy to remember i suppose cos its so easy to ask Him and question Him when thinks dont go our way and praise Him when everything goes so smoothly. 

i dont know what you may be going through when youre reading this but praise Him and have faith! that everything will go as planned BY HIM and that He will pull you through. 

i know its easier said than done but hey, no harm trying=) 

funny but this post seems to be for me more than the readers! 

in any case, here's some quotes i got from church today.
- in that moment of need, He will drive you to Him
- the temple reminds us of the naturalness of prayer
- prayer is not an art, it's a cry from the heart
- i am saved, i am being saved, i will be saved
- my problem is BIG. but my God is even BIGGER!  

bye dearies!

i cant believe that ive got to work all through the last wekk of my holiday. damn. not that im not happy bout it, its just that i was honestly looking forward to enjoying the last week of the hols on my own, chilling and stuffs=) but oh wells=) at the very least, ive got mooley coming in for the time being=) haha! okay, bye.



 

went out with the girls yesterday and i must say, it felt so much better after talking to someone bout things and all. we had fun though=) waited for rach for like a gazillion years before she actually reached! haha! took out the pink streak cos it was plastic and it was pretty damaged and all.. swapped it for a blonde streak that was actually real hair and i was quite happy bout it! =)



it wasnt supposed to be this obvious when i clip up my fringe but i sectioned my hair wrongly=( and mira just had to take this picture! =) haha! rach came and we were walking past lucky plaza and there was this manicure salon and i just wantedto know the rates for the nail art thing displayed outside. so i asked the assistant in english and she said she can only speak chinese and so i asked her in chinese and she didnt know, so she got her senior out to tend to us and as soon as she started talking, it became difficult to control our laughter! she went something like 'ehhhhh... we got the frower! ya ya.. the frowergot long and short one. or or if you dun want, we have the flien also!' okay, frower = flower, flien = french! she ment the flower patterns and the french designs! oh gosh.. mira couldnt stop laughing! haha! it was funny luh..

we watched final destination and thank goodness that room was sound proofed considering the loudness of our screams! =) haha! it was gore to the max! but fun anyways=) took pictures in the screening room till the time was up=)



we went to heeren's after that and both rach and i got rings together! as we were walking out from heeren at night, a random guy pretty much jumped out at us and was really desperate in getting someone for him to get asessed in some dying hair thingy.. he's apparently a hairstyling student and so i let him dye my hair! =) but he took out my extensions though=( damn..



okay! bye! =)